ClaSh...

09/04/09

dua hari ni stdnts are presenting dorg pnya project design...n the panels are...kami2 la lecturer kecik2...kami tidak la killer,kiranya soalan kami pn blh la d jawab oleh depa...tp yg killer nya ada sorg examiner luar from biotech corp..dr.hacharan singh...wah,hebat betul experience dia dlm industry..ada phd pulak tu..kagum2...so,suma belok2 plant yg stdnt2 ni design dia arif...klu student cakap sepatah,dia tnya berjela2...jadiknya,masa pn tlebih2 la suda...smpi kebulur2 menunggu bila la mo lunch ni...balik pn sama...dkt jm 6 baru habis...sabar je la...hari ni aku jd panel...panel pd student under supervision aku...mcm x ngam pulak..bios la aku nanti bg markah...ehehe

pg ni aku dpt surat pg kursus...so,the whole week aku akn lupakn sal keja2 aku d opis...best jgk...mkn free yg best tu...tp yg bikin panas ni pasal surat2 lain yg dpt pg ni jgk...time aku mo pg kursus la depa ni dok suruh aku jd tukang jg paper...tpaksa la aku mcari pengganti...time nak mcari2 pengganti ni la tepon d opis aku pulak buat hal...tensen2...tp wpun tensen2...bila aku tgok desktop aku...terus je aku senyum lebar...hilang suma mslh yg melanda..lupa kejap..

ni la dia desktop aku...n lelaki tu ialah lelaki pujaan kami serumah..penuh file aku tepek kt desktop kecuali kt muka dia...ehehe...tak mungkin aku tepek file kt muka ensem tu...owh junpyo...owh...

yang bengong...

syok pula dgr lagu astrid ni...bengong pompuan ni...mmg bengong...

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ad lagi satu lagu...ku tunggu janda mu lagu irwansyah...pn bengong...dari tajuk pn da tau apa kes...skg ni da mcm jd trend org nk yg org lain punya...cita ni jgk la yg jd tajuk perbualan utama ktorg masa lunch td...ehehe...gosip gosip dan gosip...mcm2 crita ada...crita derita pompuan yg kawen ngan suami org...yg hampir tkawen ngan suami org...yg sedang memburu suami org...yg sedang diburu suami org...suma ada...aku dengar je la...dgr gosip si penggosip..ehehe..yg syoknye penggosip ni lelaki...mn nk cari beb...so klu da lelaki yg bgosip of cos la blh dpercayai kn...

ssh jgk klu da tjatuh hati ngan milik org ni...kesian...sbb soal hati ni,xdpt la den nk nolong...org ckp 'klu cinta sudah melekat gula jawa rasa coklat'...gula jawa tu camana aku pn xtau,gula merah kali...klu aku la,elakkan la klu da tau org tu sudah tmiliki..carik pasal namanya tu...

ayat yang masuk dlm kepala otak aku ni tghr td...tsangkut,bselirat, terikat d urat2 dlm otak aku...ayat org yg bpengalaman...xtau la blh pakai ka tidak ni...pn bengong...bunyi nya mcm ni... 'kalau kawen ngan laki orang pun xpa,lepas dapat anak tinggal kan saja mamat tu'...uhuhuh...sesuai sgt pesanan tu...sesuai utk org yang bkerja,dan mampu sara diri dn anak...tp tidak sesuai tuk org yang nak bina kuarga bahagia...cewah...xnk la aku porak perandakan hidup org lain...banyak risiko yg kena fikir...risiko kawen ngan org bujang pn lum tentu sedia ditanggung...lagi la ngan suami org...ngeri...sbb tu kali smpi skg aku xkawen2...xbrani tanggung risiko...uhuhu...tp klu suami org tu mcm rasulullah,ape salahnye...ehehe..aik aku ni...mcm lalang...jap ke kiri jap ke kanan...bukan mcm tu...kita ada mata lihat,ada telinga dengar,ada otak..lu fikila sendiri nabil...

ApRil fOoooL

1st of april...org panggil april fool...aku kena gak mlm td,tp biasa2 ja...xda la bengang2 sgt pn...



nothing much to say about april fool,tp hrni ada something happened yg buat aku tkujat2...pagi2 kt taman,hampir accident ngan honda civic yg kuar simpang xpndg kirikanan...tetiba ja kuar dr simpang umah2 semi d tech...terkial2 la aku mengelak kete tu...nsb baik xde kete kt opposite lane...rs mcm nk jatuh je jantung aku ni...SAA 5296 V...akn ku ingat no flat ni keakhir hayat...



aku rs sktm ni sambutapril fool la...semua toilet xda air...saje je nk bg org bengang...puas aku pusing satu sklh...tpaksa g sklh lain klu nk bnisnes...

good news..

i hv received an emel from sape2 ntah,aku pn xtau...no matter who is the sender,but it really make me happy...aku rs rmi yg suka ngan berita ni,pd yg suka bgn lmbt mcm aku ni...n pd yg suka pulang awl...

konon hrni aku nk practice kn la...g keje lmbt cket...lewat pn lbh krg 10min ja...tp yg xbest tu after kol 8 pintu gate ums lane kiri da tutup...xpatut la pak gad ni wat mcm tu...bukak je la,da org nk kuar masuk...wpn lmbt smpi, tppunch kad rosak hrni,so xpyh punch..thumb print je...xde la color merah kt kad...bgs sgt la tu...

i wish to...

if i could say this to him...alangkah baiknye...maybe it is easy to say but...uhuhu...tuhan je la yg tau...i really wish to do this....



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is there anybody can help me...i dnt think so...i am the only one can help myself...i am the one who can choose the best way for my future..but i dnt know which one to choose..aku blh bdoa je la...

makan2...

yesterday i was invited for a dinner and closing caremony of shell prestige programme...it was held in le meridian hotel and sponsored by shell...the dinner startd at 7.30 but i was told to be there by 6.30...so,mcm biasa i was ready in half an hour b4 the function starts and reach there on time...punctual kn aku ni...driving alone to kk made me bored...but somthing happen, aku langgar devider jalan when i was heading to the parking lot of the hotel...habis tayar baru aku...ngan rim skali...uhuhu...sedey...selekoh tu tajam sgt da la kete aku agak panjang..bukit pulak tu...but the thing had happend...nk wat cmana lg...redha je la...

another unexpectd thing was when a problem suddenly come up and i had to replace the duty of the person in charge on the program...i had to excort the vip to the function hall...just wait for him at lobby and walk together to the hall...mcm biase la,just sembang2,tekan lift,jln2...simple..but when we reached the hall,i dnt know where should i bring him...i dnt know the table of vip...all table is just the same...sudah la dean n all rep from shell ada sana tunggu tu vip,aku pulak yg blur ni dok la tfikir2 ape nk buat ni...uhuhu..sudahnye aku kena sound dek dean...dean ckp mcm ni...u shold bring him to his seat...aku jwb je..i dnt knw which one is the seat,this is not my task actually...ehehe...nasib la...but,i dnt like the situation...i look so stupid...maybe...

this afternoon we had lunch on new york restorn..ehehe..very nice to had lunch togther and celebrating apiz's bday..he is 24 yrs old oready...soon to get married..eh salah...lum tau lg bila..ehehe..

i enjoyed the lunch and dinner last nite but there is somthing burdened my mind,my heart...i wish to cry...but it cant help my mind to get rid of the problem...

i made her cry

i just finished conducted second test for my subjects. i give them quite tough questions compared to the first test...same as the 1st test,the 2nd test olso worth 15 marks hwever the duration given to my students is an hour compared to the 1 st test, i give them only 30minuts...i was very straight with them...asked them to put all their belonging except stationary in front or otside the lecture room...and put their id at their table...i warned them,if i found anybody is cheating, i will take their id...biar sume takut ngan aku...ehehe...garang kunun...

in the middle of the test,i saw a female student stare at her friends paper..ehehe..aku pn ape lg go straight to her,take her id and her friends id...xsmpi hati jgk,tp kata mst d kota...br stdnts leh respect...after the test finished, i ask them to pass their answer paper within 30seconds....or else i wont mark their paper...in other word,they will lose 15 marks...ehehe...tkejar2 budak2 tu...after,i went out from the classroom,the student who r cheating stopped me and try to explain that she didnt cheating...aku wat dunno je...ehehe...garang la kunun...but just after i reach my office,the student come again and begging me not to deduct her marks...kesian jgk...lg kesian when i saw her eyes...sedang menahan air mata drpd menitis...lama2 menitis jgk...her fren try to calm her down...aku ni yg mudah cair ni,cair la jgk..ksian la..so,i forgive her for now...but warned her that i wont forgive her if the things happen again...siap explain lg,klu ikut undang2 ums,she woldnt allow to take final exam..tp nasib baikla aku baik hti cket...ehehe...

bored to death...

welcome to my new blog...ehehe..

Where should i start. What im going to write.dunno...im bored to death...just now, i was watching a Korean drama entitled 90 days, time to love...pinjam cd housemate ni...quite interesting love stury,but it made me suffocated...sad all the time watching...uhuuhu...that why i just stopped it in the middle...or else,aku teriak sorang2,nangis2...habis tisu kt meja ni kang...

nothing interesting happen in my life recently,no sweet memory to remember...it has been a long time not to hanging out,doing crzy things,laught till my stomach burst,kbox,bowling,waching movies...aku boring...i was thinking all this weekend how to cheer up my boring life...finally i come up with an idea to be a fellow at my sist college...kolej indah permai...may i?...at least i can join students activities...bnyk la aku ni...wanna be a fellow but still want to stay here,in my home sweet home...i like this home so much, eventhough i always left alone..ehehe...the best thing of this house is,i can jog around the living room,climbing up and down the stairs...ehehe..klu aku dok sorg2 aku buat la perangai...if i could buy a house,i would buy a house at this area...kuikuikui...day dreaming...

writing about house,reminds me about my hosmate,one of my housemate wanna get married soon...next month...very soon actually...tahniah kt die..at last,the gossip is become real...last month when i asked her bout that,she said that its just a gossip...funny isn’t it...why dnt u just admit it...mcm artis pulak..kuikuikui...whatever it is,of cos, she has her own reason why dnt just let us know bout that earlier...but im still wondering why the dean n other lecturers was informed earlier...aik,aku ni nak peningkn kepala nape lak...

at this moment, i am sitting on dining table while listening to noisy sound from mesin pemotong rumput...aduih..nape la mesin potong rumput tu so noisy...irriteates me so much...nk layan lagu classic pn da hilang feel...whats more to write...i just want to fill up my free time...owh,about my car...i washed it myself this morning...ehehe...bkn sng aku nk panjat2 tangga cuci kete aku yg tinggi tu...ngan aku yg rendANG TAK bbuah ni...it took me about one and half hour to wash it till shining...perasan la,xde nye bkilau2 kete tu...but at least,debu yg almost half inch thick tu had been removed...poor my car,got stretch here n there...eventought this car is not my choice but i do love it,since it saves petrol so much...i never have a chance to buy my own favorit car...uhuu...this avanza is my mum’s choise,suddenly my father wanna buy dmax and ask me to use the avanza,aku pn ok jela..jd xleh la aku bli kancil idaman ku...kuikuikui...i dreamed about kancil before,when i was studying..funny isn’t it..evryone’s willing to have a Honda,vios,wira ,all big2 cars,but i just want a kancil...but i saw a new model of Hyundai car last Friday after i was having lunch in 1 borneo...its so cute..im in love with the car..named I10..no more kancil in my mind now,replaced by I10...ehehe...the price is quite ok,51k for full spec...but i dnt think i could have it...its better to think about a house first than a new car...n one more...save money to get married...ehehe...